Daxton

My dear sweet baby Daxton, I feel so bad that I haven't written more about you since the first few moments of meeting you.
Wow! I remember thinking "How am I a mother of 2 now? Is this real? Is this sweet boy the doctor just placed on me really my baby?" I felt like I had just given birth to your brother Kael. How is it possible that I now have a new baby boy? It was too perfect. We tried for so long to become pregnant with Kael and then with you, it was only after a few months. I was sure I would need surgery to remove the endometriosis but the very day I had an appointment scheduled with the doctor I found out I was pregnant. I took a test early in the morning after your brother woke me up and while daddy was still sleeping. I was nervous. I thought for sure I would see a negative. Boy was I wrong! The word "pregnant" appeared on the test and I started shaking in disbelief. Kael and I showed daddy right away. He was thrilled. Then to find out later that I was carrying Kael's best friend inside me was exciting. There is nothing I love more than my 3 men! Ammon, Kael and You!
Being pregnant with you was very similar to being pregnant with Kael. You both moved like crazy! The doctors always mentioned how much you moved around. And that was your normal activity. I started feeling you move at 16 weeks. 2 weeks before I knew you were a boy. Every time we went to the doctors and heard your heartbeat it was in "little girl range" just like your brother. Oh how perfect your heartbeat sounded. So comforting. at 10 weeks I got so scared because all of a sudden I didnt feel sick all the time like before. We had an ultrasound and saw your sweet little body. You moved around so much. The ultrasound tech said you had to be a boy by how much you moved.
I didn't throw up as much with you as I did with Kael. Maybe I just learned to eat often. One thing thst was different was that I could not walk too much at one time. I felt like you pushed on my bladder too much. I got more uncomfortable sleeping but I guess it wasn't too bad considering I was carrying along a little toddler everywhere I went. I remember reading to Kael and he would sit on my lap squishing you and you would kick him. He didn't mind. He adores you and has since the moment he saw you. He just stared at you in awe. He never acts jealous when mommy spends lots of time with you. Just before you turned 2 months, you got RSV. We went to the insta care where they told us you had it and they did a deep nasal thing to get rid of the mucus you had. You HATED that. Then we went home. A little later you felt really hot. We took your temperature and it was 102°. I remember hearing that if a baby is under 3 months with a temp if 101° or higher it could be serious. So we called the on call doctor and he urged us to head to the emergency room and prepare to stay the night. I was so emotional and worried. I called my mom to pick up Kael. They needed to take your blood to test it. That was the worst experience ever. They poked and prodded at your little body as you screamed. I couldn't do anything to comfort you. They kept saying you were too chubby so they couldn't get your small veins. Your veins kept moving and they dug around in your arms and hands trying to get it in. it was terrible. They tried both hands and arm and both feet. It took them 6 times to get just a little blood. You were breathing fine on your own, you just had a high fever that stayed constant. You were so tired and out of it. You had never slept so much even in your first few weeks of life. You were too tired to eat but you still did pretty good. You lost half a pound while at the hospital. When we thought we may be able to leave soon, they told us that the blood has been contaminated and that they needed to get more blood and test it again. after all that work trying to get your blood ended up getting contaminated and it was all for nothing. I was so upset. did not wanna go through that again. This time they had a nurse from nurse and baby instead of Primary Children's come up and take your blood and she did so much better she got it on her first try.We stayed another night but because the blood came back fine we were able to leave the next night. You were a tough baby at times. You did not sleep very well at night. I had to sleep with you in my arms every single night and nurse you almost the whole night. it was exhausting. we thought you had a sensitivity to me drinking milk and I went without milk for almost 4 months. you finally grew out of it and I was so relieved to be able to drink milk again. You are such a sweet little baby everyone always talks about how they have never seen a baby who smiles as much as you do. you finally sleep in your own bed and are doing a lot better. you take really good naps during the day so that's very helpful for mommy. You have started sitting up and are doing so great. You are a very big boy. Everyone comments on your cute chubbiness. My grandpa says you need to play football. You have such beautiful sleepy eyes. They are dark with dark, long lashes. Your smile melts my heart. You are such a blessing in my life. I love you do much my baby boy.